My current playlist:

Just some songs that haven't left the abyss of my mind:

Bang - Armchair Cynics
Siren Song - Bat For Lashes
The Big Sleep - Bat For Lashes
Gloomy Sunday - Billie Holiday
Lover's End - The Birthday Massacre
Isobel - Bjork
Breath - Breaking Benjamin
La Bohme - Charles Aznavour
Enjoy The Silence - Depeche Mode
The Kill - The Dresden Dolls
Son of a Preacher Man - Dusty Springfield
Let The Record Show - Emilie Autumn
306 - Emilie Autumn
Lothlorien - Enya
Cosmic Love - Florence and the Machine
Mordred's Lullaby - Heather Dale
The Walk - Imogen Heap
Que je T'aime - Johnny Halliday
This Woman's Work - Kate Bush
Magic - Ladyhawke
No Quarter - Led Zeppelin
Wish I Had an Angel - Nightwish
Vanilla Twilight - Owl City (Don't judge me!)
Fever - Peggy Lee
Song To Say Goodbye - Placebo
Carnival of Rust - Poets of the Fall
Gingerbread Coffin - Rasputina
Pieces - Red
Big Spender - Shirley Bassey
Monster - Skillet
Diamonds - Sunrise Avenue
She is the Sunlight - Trading Yesterday
Angels - Within Temptation

Nadine xx


Morality plays
On Stages of Sin
The easy way out
or the easy way in...

Rant + MV of the week!

Hello to all my loverly friends.

Yep, you guessed it. It's 'MV of the Week' time! but before I get one with that, I think I may just tell you a bit about the personal aspect of my week... Well, besides the school work and the inevitable exhaustion involved, I've actually been in this infamous mood where the slightest or smallest issues just consternate me, and I think it may actually be affecting the people around me. Now, I can't help the fact that I've had little patience as of late, but, unfortunately, I feel that I have been patient for a bit too long, so now I believe that the time is right to say how I really feel.

I've had enough of people taking and never giving anything back, whilst at the same time expecting to be given more. I just feel like if I don't answer to someone's plea, I'll be hated for the rest of my life, or rather the rest of the week until they have something else to ask me for. I don't have 50 000 hands, I just can't do everything you ask of me and, yes, I can say no. You're not pleased with that? Well then, excuse my French, but you can all find someone else to fuck up.

Now, chances are that I am a selfish cow with psychological issues who's possibly dreamt this all up, and if that it is the case, my sincerest appologies... but right now, I just feel like I need a good whinge to shake me out of this horrible mood.

Anyway, on to a slightly different note, the MV of this week is also a bit sad and bittersweet (like myself, seeing as I've had a good day, but a horror-filled week). This gem of a vidlet is made by a user named Jonnyzkool92 and he has dedicated it to the wonderful women of... LOST!

Okay, so those who know me quite well will certainly know that I have been going on about the final season premiere of LOST all damn week and when I had actually watched it, I came back to school the next day with jizz stains on my kilt... Okay, no I didn't, but that's just my way of saying that it was quite good, therefore I feel the MV of this week should be one that revolves around LOST.

Anyway, Jonnyzkool92 is actually an avid LOST fan-vidder and I'm quite familiar with his work, which is exceptionally good, specifically this video. The main reason for this is because I feel that LOST has the best ensemble of cast members and characters in modern day television, specifically it's female cast, who I think portray their characters' emotions and personas fabulously. Jonnyzcool92 has brought together all the tension, bitterness, joy, spite, fear, confusion, hurt and relief felt by these women, and has merged them in order to create a masterful video, presenting the story of every single woman, major to minor, who has somehow elevated the plot of LOST.

...and dare I say that this is actually what I loved most about this video? In all honesty, I've grown just a tad sick and tired of seeing all these Skate, Suliet, Jacket and Jate videos, which only focus on the realtionships rather than the emotional depth of the characters. This video, on the other hand, has it all. If you want to go on a visual journey from love to hate, from joy to anger, from hope to despair, from courage to fear and from life to death, this video will take you there. Another aspect of the video's context, which also thoroughly pleased me, is that the user included so many underrated characters that I personally love. An example of this would be the short but sweet inclusion of the likes of Libby, Penny, Charlotte, Nadia and, my personal favourite, the mother-daughter realtionship between Danielle and Alex. *tear*

On to a more technical note, the video had uh-mazing colouring. I really quite liked how the user constantly mainpulated different colour tones and contrasts to match the tension in the atmosphere of the scene or the mood of the character. One distinct use of colour I like is the scene with Juliet burning herself with a muffin tray, resulting in a memory of Ben doing the same thing without being physically harmed. The memory is shown in grey-scale and the aftermath of the memory is Juliet frustrated with her clumsiness, therefore the scene's colour tone is changed to an orange-twinge in order to signify Juliet's anger.

The user also did a fantastic job with the cutting and editing by choosing all the scenes capable of having an emotional impact on the viewer, as well as the song choice which also intensified the video's meaning. Breathe Me by Sia is prossibly one of the saddest songs I've ever heard and it really matches a lot of the situations our LOST ladies are going through. Sia performs the song magically, making her pain and anguish believable through the haunting cracks in her voice and the hopelessness of the lyrics, which the user has masterfully used to go with the situation in each clip or scene, therfore making the song ideal for the video.

In conclusion, I give it 5 out of 5, due to the fact that the user has captured the right emotions and edited it immaculately. If you are not a LOSTie, do not fear, this video is uh-mazing and I firmly believe that you do not have to watch the show in order to feel something towards this work of art. BUT, once again, this is only my opinion and I'll leave it for you to judge:




Thanks people! Over and out.
Nadine xx

Betrayal - A.S.J Tessimond

If a man says half himself in the light, adroit
Way a tune shakes into equilibrium,
Or approximates to a note that never comes:

Says half himself in the way two pencil-lines
Flow to each other and softly separate,
In the resolute way plane lifts and leaps from plane:

Who knows what intimacies our eyes may shout,
What evident secrets daily foreheads flaunt,
What panes of glass conceal our beating hearts?


This is exactly how I feel about everybody right now.

That is all.
Nadine xx

'The Regal Twelve' by Alexia Sinclair

Hello all! I'm feeling really bored and I don't have exceedingly serious homework to do (or I'm just not in the damn mood), so I've decided to update. The topic that today's post is going to be based on is a set of artworks that I've been a fan of for ages, but I haven't had the chance to properly express my love towards them.

They're a set of graphic images created by Alexia Sinclair called 'The Regal Twelve'. What she's done is that she's gathered twelve scandalous/infamous women in history and designed an artwork for each of them, telling their story through the symbolism in the images. I have read up on each womans story and I believe that Sinclair has done an awesome job in bringing these women back to life, especially for a more younger and modern generation, which I myself am apart of. But yeah, here they are:


'Eleanor of Aquitaine - The Eagle (1122-1204)'The Eagle: means 'Eleanor'; presents a dopplganger effect
Pregnancy: The birth of her famous son, King Richard the Lionheart
Armor & sword: The manner in which her children turned out
Door: The entrance to her tomb
Coat of Arms: Family symbolism


'Boudica - The Celtic Queen (AD 26 - 61)'
Battlefield: Her triumph as a female warrior
Helmet & sword: Symbolism of Roman mockery and defeat
Horse: Her Famous Chariot
Body Paint: Celtic Tradition


'Cleopatra - The Seductress (69 - 30 BC)'
Snake: Her suicide
Wall Paintings: Egyptian Mythology
Scarab Beatles: They were used in Egyptian tradition to bejewel the bodies of the dead


'Olympias - The Sorceress (376 - 316 BC)'
Snakes: Symbolises the myth of how her son Alexander was concieved
Wind Blowing: Symbolises the God Zeus and his role in Alexander's existence
Golden Box: Symbolises her Husband, Philip


'Christina of Sweden - The Andgrogynous Queen (1926 - 1686)'
Bow & arrow: Her love of hunting and other male-based sports
The Mask: Represents the two different sides of her; The King and the Queen
Body paint & feathers: Symbolises the Goddess of the hunt, Artemis


'Elisabeth Bathory - The Countess of Blood (1560 - 1614)'
The Wolf: Represents the hunt for her next victims
Moon: Signifies her love of the night
The colour red: Bood lust and her supposed killings
The Castle: Her home and future prison


'Catherine the Great - The Enlightened Empress (1729 - 1796)'
The colour violet: Pride and vanity
The Quill: Her intelligence and illumination
The Icons: Her place amongst the greats


'Alexandra Romanov - The Last Czarina of Russia (1872 - 1918)'
Russian eggs (Faberges): The past luxuries of the Russian court; decadence
Forest setting: Where the Romanovs' remains were left after they were murdered
Jewel encrusted gown: Signifies the jewels that were sewn into their corsets at the time of the shooting
Stance & facial expression: The disappearance of her daughter, Anastasia


'Elizabeth I - The Virgin Queen (1533 - 1603)'
Chess board: Her life and the many obstacles she faced; The strategic political actions she took
Radiance: Symbolises her 'Virginity'
Orb & sceptre: Her role as queen; reminiscent of her portrait


'Isabella of Spain - The Catholic (1451 - 1504)'
Painting: Siginifies her Christianity; Cathedral setting
Rosary beads & Bible: Once again, her religion
Her stance: Religious fanaticism
Model of a ship: The expeditions she entrusted to Christopher Columbus
The red quill: Death; the Spainish Inquisition
Chili: Signifies the new world


'Agrippina - The Poisoness (AD 15 - 59)'
Her stance: Like a lioness, hence the inclusion of a lion
Mushroom: Her alleged use of a mushroom to poison Claudius
Lion: Also signifies Roman power and nobility
Arch: Roman civilisation


'Marie Antoinette - The Extravagant Queen (1755 - 1793)'
Slice of cake: The splendor and luxury of her life; decadence and excesses
Ballroom: French culture
Painting: The revolution which lead to Antoinette's demise; Napolean Bonaparte who took her place as emperor

I remember that the first one of these artworks I saw was the Catherine image, due to one of my good friends, Louisa, chosing to study her for a Modern History assessment. In her powerpoint she included that image, and I remember the whole class just gasping due to the sheer beauty of it.

Okay, so I've just talked about the symbolism in each one (or rather pin-pointed) but my favourites are certainly Isabella and Alexandra Romanov. The symbolism in them is just fantastic, specifically in the Romanov one. I liked how she used the Eggs to represent not only the luxuries of Russian nobility, but how it also led to the royal family's demise, which I found to be a very creative way to express the tragic story of the Tsar's downfall.

Anyway, these are a very lovely way to tell these womens' stories and to get people interested in the magic of history. If I could be bothered I would write a full paragraph about each woman's story, but sincerely, I can't. It's way too much effort.

Overall, Sinclair has done a great job in mixing traditional painting with digital design, but I, however, found myself least interested in Cleopatra. I don't know if it was the actual artwork or if the persona of Cleopatra never really interested me, but I think it may be the latter, due to the fact that the artwork actually is quite lovely and does represent Cleo as what she truly is... A tragic skank-face.

Anyway, I'm done for tonight. Thanks for reading and Till the next time.

Nadine xx

Headaches lead to pain, which leads to death + MV OF THE WEEK!

Hey possums. How's about we all just have a massive LOL at Nadine's attempt to update daily... BAHAHAHA. Done? Good.

Anyway, so as you've all probably noticed (due to the title), I have an excruciating headache that's just been killing me for the past couple of days. It almost made me not want to update today, but I am not going to let it bring me down, so I shall review my choice of MV, seeing as I really love this video and it's also quite short, so it won't really take me too long... Hopefully.

Alright, so the video I've picked for the week is made by a user named XkjscififanX, who, I admit, is a vidder I'm not very familiar with, but this certain video I absolutely looooved. It is a Doctor Who fanvid about the Tenth Doctor's final hours and all the memories he has had during his time in David Tennant form. Now, WARNING, WARNING if you are an avid Doctor Who fan, tears are a given and if you have not seen the final episode and you do not wish to spoil it for yourself, DO NOT WATCH!

Okay, so I have to confess that I am bigger fan of the last video I reviewed (Vinny/Odette - Rebirthing) as it is much more creative, but when it comes to emotional impact/intensity, this MV is an epic win and is far more superior. Now, I will admit that I'm not a massive Doctor Who junkie (like Caroline), but I must say that this vid actually made me feel a lot of things. It made me feel sad, it made me feel the Doctor's inevitable anguish, due to the heavy burden of knowledge he carries and it made me feel a little excited, because it basically presented the highs and lows of the Tenth Doctor's adventures ALL in 40 seconds. Uh-mazing.

Anyway, the editing in this video is exceptional. I loved the different colour hues the user has added, as well as the immaculate cutting and constant switching to different scenes, which makes the video all the more exciting. I also quite enjoyed how she kept some of the dialogue, as it made the viewers relate to the doctor a bit more, specifically someone who's never watched the show. Judging by this vid, they'd probably think he's a tragic figure of some sort. The music was also fantastic and it made me love the video even more, as it is one of my favourite songs of all time. Carnival of Rust by Finnish band, Poets of the Fall is a song that really relates, in my opinion, to the Doctor's emotive side. Just listen to the lyrics and the sombre mood of the music, and you'll know what I mean.

In conclusion, I give this MV about a 4.5 out of 5, due to the fact that I would have loved for it to be a bit longer, but overall, a very good acheivement for the user... Of course, that's just me, so here it is for you to make your own judgement (be careful, you might cry or wee yourself):

I bet you all either wee'd or cried. Anyway, that's all for tonight and I sincerely hope Caroline got a good kick out of this. Over and out.
Nadine xx